Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Well, haven't blog for a long long time. So many things have been happening in my life, and really, it's hard to pinpoint how I'm gonna start this.

Well, currently down with the flu, a pretty bad one.. After seeing the doctor yesterday, slept from 9pm-9am. Then 10am to 12pm, and 3pm-7pm. Lol. In the midst of it all, drowning in cold sweat and coughing very hard, trying to rid the phelgmns for the lungs. Definitely not a pretty sight.

Roughly, it has been almost 24 hours since I quitted smoking. Feeling better? lol no way, not yet I guess. Breathelessness, lethargic and cold sweat. I heard from somewhere as the lungs start to heal, it'll expel some gunk from the lungs, of course, temporily making me more breatheless then usual.

Well, about yesterday night, I wasn't sure if it's the fever, or is it fatigue. Before I headed to bed, suddenly had giddy spells, and at night, I might have become abit delusional drifting in and out of dreams, yet semi concious, knowing I wasn't able to sleep fully at night.

Can't wait to recover from my cold...  At least, I know it can't get any worst then this. I've always thought I'll quit smoking when I'm attached, or that was the plan -laughs-. But now, I'm quitting smoking for myself.. Or maybe for the sake of a breakthrough, for God. In the midst of all these "self inflicted" madness, I know I'm really putting full dependency on God. Reading the bible and praying hard everyday.

So much in my mind right now, I've got so much to say, haha.. But I think, until I further sort out my thoughts, I'll leave it as this for now.

posted @ 10/27/2009 07:49:00 PM

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