Thursday, October 01, 2009

Wanted to catchup on my previous postings, but gradually started to ponder about life. (Yea, one of those moments) Well, happened to talk to this new Staff in my poly, his 27 years old with a diploma only, and was sharing with me lots of stuffs. We aren't exactly friends to start of with, more like aquaintence. However, we shared 1 vital similarity, both of us undergo the same life experiences, and had turned over a new leaf.

During our 10 over minutes conversation. He shared how he had undergone the same trials as me, and that for my case, it's highly possible to catchup, or overtake my peers so long I don't give up. The conversation was deep; ironically it's almost like how a sinner goes up to a confessional box and let everything out. It had that kind of atmosphere.

Honestly, I'm living it out now, pushing every ounce I have into my studies and to God. Thinking back about everything tha happened, good or bad. Every second, every breathe we take, every thought that passes our mind and every action we take based on our decisions, regardless how small, unknowingly we're recording them down in our life. Guess that's how we get biographies.

As human, we can look so deep into our philosiphys, ideologys, emotions, visions, dreams and hopes. But life for a fact is very fragile. A freak accident or taking the wrong step and the individual's soul vanishes, leaving a cold hard shell. Life's Irony, but all the more we should live the way we want, before God's calling. For me, I'd say I'm 70% satisfied, should I head to the heavens anytime soon. Being the sentimental type, the other 30% should be getting that special someone? Hahaha, wellll, setting my life on the road to success, I don't dwell in my emotions as much and am in control of my emotions these days. It doesn't mean I put my feelings aside and become a cold heartless person, but that it's not right to dwell in it so much resulting in an emo, pity party which blinds myself from fulfilling other aspects in life. I guess, after going through Good love, bad love, it made me wiser regardless the situation I was in. Guess it'll jus boil down to being if ever the right one comes by, I'll put my heart and soul to it. If not, reflecting back on life, it'll still be pretty great, lol.

posted @ 10/01/2009 09:27:00 PM

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