Saturday, May 30, 2009
Dang, flooded with 5 revisions, 4 pending projects and 1 upcoming 1.. So much to do this weekend... That aside, I can't seem to get my feet up for a run on weekends, somehow it's easier when I'm in scl under extreme pressure. An extremist who strives for perfection, yet, a slacker, ahahaha...
After another hectic day in school, manage to progress in my Final Year Project. After some constant browsing, stumbled upon pocket bikes. After taking a look at the specifications, realize that it's better then any of our previous finds, and very practical for usage for our Eco car. Can't wait to start getting everything, disassemble these bike and assemble the dang car.. Made an appointment with the shopkeeper, hoping to go down with my members after school on Monday.. Thx to Xing, was able, to some degree, confidant of selecting the parts needed for Eco Car. I better start shaping up and do some serious reading, can't always depend on the car freak, LOL.
Attempted to read up on calculating our car chassis, was I in for a big shock;
G-force(skid pad), Spring Rate, Stiffness, Torsion... I was wondering if I took up A diploma in the physics field instead of mechanical engineering.... No wonder the lecturers was asking if we're going for doctorate =/
Shortly, did some last minute revision for Maths. Made some mistakes here and there, won't top the class for the 3rd week. Well, just have to learn to do things quick, and yet as sharp.
Went for church wide bible study at night, getting an in depth understanding of the Book of Solomon. Topic was the Initial Love as a believer whom already know God, with reference to "Songs Of Solomon". As Pastor Kong shared his knowledge and teachings, it reminded me how I felt years back when He called me back. 3 times I rejected him, honestly answering him that my bros are the 1 that I put on equal with Him. Being in my prime, and with worldly commitments, it felt like the right thing to do. As learned, Love is honest, and is built by that foundation. I would have done the same thing back then. But the difference between me and the norm, was i had a clear perspective of why I made such a decision. I dun deny the consequences of it was great. And the soul grieved with the absence of the holy spirit for years.
Whatever it is, lifting up all I have to Him, to acknowledge and confess my love for Him is of the highest degree. To push my capacity of love for God deeper, deeper and deeper which made my bond with others; friends, parents, brothers, etc look incomparable. I don't compromise anything lesser today, then yesterday, But my love for God just got higher. With that understanding, I could gradually see how THAT degree of love lifted me out of the world to the Heavens.
The brothers and sisters I know, years of soccer, mugging in scl, muggin at work, late night hours over the phone, overnight karaoke, late night boozing and getting happily drunk after pubbing n clubbing, being there for each other when we got hurt in love.. In short, millions of flashbacks and experience running through my mind in seconds, REAL events that happen to Me! Memories and bonds, they hold infinite value. Somehow, I felt, and that I had to, and lifted up all these to Him. During worship, tears flowed, because I felt some form of sacrifice was made at that instance, something just broke inside me, and the pain of the flesh cried out in my heart. I guess that's how one feels when he is being broken.
Gradually, realizing that I once again stood in front of God. Will all material thoughts cast aside, experiencing once again the innocence of a child. Of where I had stopped years back, He smiled and pointed at the last imprint I took and said, "Look, this was where you had stopped."
Holding His hand, I walked on.
posted @ 5/30/2009 09:47:00 AM
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